Telling Me What i Wanna Hear

Between Me and You,

IMA NEED YOU TO SAY SOMETHING BABY(drizzy)......

............but ummmm that doesn't mean ANYTHING??!!! When u approach me in efforts of getting to know me....smoothly your first question is "WHAT KIND OF GUYS DO U LIKE"...now normally i would answer that question accordingly:

~Dark
~Short-Haircut (i'm at times meticulous)
~Goal Oriented
~Cultured
~CONSISTENT
~Not over 300 lbs lmao (SHALLOW i know)
~Chivalrous
~Funny
~Intelligent
......and the list can go on!!! So with all that being said u in RETURN become my PROTOTYPE!!! You become the man i described and you so fittingly "TELL ME WHAT I WANNA HEAR"....you explain to me that your serious about life and a future with me, you Chivalrously(idk if that's a word) woooo me! You start cracking JOKES as a matter of fact you become a comedian, you court me enough to have a dire passion to wanna SEE YOU a.s.a.p....

Now what's wrong with this picture as you continuously seduce my mind...Logic left along time ago when your voice deepened on the phone and your whispered about how i was sooo FINE. You then explained your qualities of a perfect woman that you desire...and fittingly that PROTOTYPE described ME... so i'm sitting on the phone in Awww telling all my girl friends via TEXT how important you are to me..YET we still haven't went on one FIRST DATE...

The First Date
Thinking it would be at a nice jazz club or even a park......we end up at your crib! I overlook logic of the entire situation b/c i was told what i wanted to hear...All i knew was that i wanted to see you and what's more better than a place thats more conveniant FOR YOU..... I overlook morals and standards b/c i'm sure that you wanna be in a relationship with me!! AFTER ALL THAT'S WHAT YOU TOLD ME... so physicality becomes apart of the agenda and i indulge in HEART first...

When its Over
I head home as silence feels my car....my phone doesn't ring it vibrates w/a TEXT explaining the difficulty of your HEART...you've realized that i'm no longer the PROTOTYPE of what you want....and my ears go deaf as they search to be told something familiar that once whispered I AM WHAT HE WANTS....but yet you now are SILENT as i yearn for you to TELL ME WHAT I WANNA HEAR....now my conscious seeps in as the TRUTH becomes more and more hurtful and hard to bare.  I decide i wanna hate you... but LADIES IT WAS MY OWN INSECURITIES NOT HIS.... wanting to be told what I WANTED TO HEAR...

Rewind to the Begininning of an END
As soon as he asked me "WHAT KIND OF GUYS I LIKE" i should've walked away... if your interested in getting to know me, my TYPE shouldn't matter to you nor anyone else. Words are not to get caught up on..... anyone can SAY SOMETHING BABY, but few can SHOW YOU HOW THEY FEEL....a good man doesn't need to verbalize his Great qualities and features..he stands confident in himself and follows through with his actions. He shouldn't feel comfortable inviting you to his crib for a first date. KNOW YOUR WORTH LADIES.... in the words of my homegirl BEYONCE, "there's just certain things as women we shouldn't deal with"...At the end of that situation i placed the blame on MYSELF b/c i should've wanted better for me.....Intimately speaking i hope you find strength in me. This goes vice a versa for FELLAS as well. Know you worth!


~Intimately MalissaRenee~