Temporary Satisfaction

That false sense of love is what attracts us all. That desire and wanting feeling that we all thrive on to make us feel needed. We all want to feel special. Settling on the idea of temporary satisfaction is like that one true feeling of being picked last for a team. You say a joke to lighten the mood so your feelings aren't hurt even when you know the inevitable. Hurt and fear of the unknown heightens the effect of temporary satisfaction. The worse part is when you yearn for everlasting and you know it's only temporary. So why proceed with mere caution although you know the outcome yields temporary. Because we long to love. We long for passion. That feeling of chills when they tell you everything you want to hear. That feeling of desire when they hold you close as if the night never ends. That one feeling of knowing you're the only one they choose to spend this moment with. That feeling of how they make your whole entire body feel on fire with an aggressive tug. The whisper of insanely lustful rhetoric while lost in the moment are the fantasies we long for. But we rarely remember that fantasies are temporary as well. Once you have fulfilled it, it soon becomes a fragment of used desire.  I want you to want me regardless of the outcome. I need you to need me only in this one particular moment. I want to be the only one you desire at this very second and I want you to read my heart and mind so you know exactly how I want it. I pay the cost of temporary satisfaction and although it will stick me in debt I will yearn for passionate short satisfaction. I'm driven by impulse and destructive by quick tongue and decisions. I'm wild and abrasive.slightly jealous but it's only temporary. One day i'll cry and mourn because it'll all be a memory. I'll say hurtful things because my impulsive behavior quickly made me the victim. I'll say shit i dont mean and make you feel to blame. But the truth is i knew from the beginning what i was getting myself into. Irational behavior and manic decisions all embodies who i am.I'm crazy and sporadic. Driven and emotional. I'm a romantic at heart but it's all temporary. I love in the moment because I desire us to be beautiful. So just except me and my roller coaster of emotions and just remember it's only temporary and my brash decision for satisfaction will soon all be over. I hope you find strength through me......